I'm in a bad mood today. The world is against me today. Everyone sucks today. You're not my friend today. The sun isn't out today.

The weather totally effects my mood. If it's grey out, I feel grey. I don't like winter. It's often grey in the winter, even though this is Southern California. Thanksgiving is fun, Christmas is fun, New Year's is fun. But after New Year's? There's nothing to look forward to but grey. Grey, like today.

I'm feeling introspective and sad. My monthly visitor arrived today, so I shouldn't be feeling sad right now. Monthly visitor sadness happens before, not during.

So what is it? I don't know. I don't wanna talk about it. It's more than the weather, I suspect. Tomorrow will be better.

I'm going to go home, light some candles and watch Survivor.